Taylor Swift’s new Netflix documentary, Taylor Swift: Miss Americana, premiered at the Sundance Film Festival this week. And, in the film, the 30-year-old singer talks about her past struggles with an eating disorder that caused her to starve after seeing unflattering paparazzi photos.
The Grammy winner said in voice over that photographers were waiting outside her front door that it was not good for her to see pictures of her every day.
“It only happened a few times and I’m not at all proud of it. A picture of me where I feel like my stomach is too big, or … someone said I looked pregnant … and it will just make me starve a little – just stop eating ” said Swift.
In addition to the film’s premiere, Swift spoke exclusively to Variety about the document for their latest cover story where she described her past relationship with food as “unhealthy”. Swift explained that her relationship to food was exactly the same psychology that she applied to everything else in her life, which recorded something “good” when she tapped her head and recorded something “bad” when she was punished.
Singer You Need To Calm Down described a time when she was only 18 years old and a magazine asked her if she was pregnant because she had worn an outfit that made her lower abdomen not have the “flat” air. Taylor Swift Opens Up About Her Past Eating Disorder In New Documentary
This, for Swift, recorded as punishment. However, she thought that walking on the set of a photo shoot and being able to adapt to the size of a sample was a “headache”.
Swift explained that after recording these experiences enough times, you begin to adjust to everything in your life for praise and punishment, including your own body.
Eventually, Swift’s attempts to starve eventually affected her during her 1989 world tour in 2015. She explained that she thought she was supposed to feel like fainting by the end of a show, or in the middle of it.
Three years later, she was on the reputation stage and finally realized that eating food gave her energy and made her stronger.
Taylor Swift says she is still uncomfortable talking about her eating disorder, her body image and her relationship to food. And, she wasn’t even sure she wanted to talk about it in the documentary.
She finally decided it made sense because of the way director Lana Wilson tells the story.
Taylor Swift: Miss Americana will be released on January 31 on Netflix.